Thursday, December 24, 2009
"i dont wanna!" @ 10:23 AM
i dont wanna let go of him! dont force me to you idiot! yeah maybe tonight hes not here for me! so what?! im sure he has a good excuse. just because hes not here for me doesnt mean he doesnt care! okay? im sure he'll be there sooner. "YOU say that he left me and wont care about me anymore for no reason" well, i know he wont leave me hes not that type of guy who would leave someone when they are hurt. i trust him and i love him.im talking about friss. and this is for YOU know who you are.if you read this friss, tell me that hes wrong.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
"sigh" @ 9:39 AM
FLY sigh i cried again
went on webcam with one of the kbians. he said i should let go of friss. and i know its true that i should. but i just dont know i just feel lost. i have no one else to confide to. no one can understand me just like he does. not even close im sure of that. ugh its just so hard! i will leave brunei sometime now. and idk i just ugh im freakin stressed out like shit.
tonight i had anther breakdown, i havent had these in awhile. but idk tonight i really felt hurt. like that heartbreaking feeling was there like literally. it really did hurt. i just dont know what to do anymre.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
"im flying" @ 2:22 AM
today i have to make 1 huge decision as huge as shit! whether to go back to Australia or just go to KK.
My flight is tomorow. Brisbane OR KK? ughhh i hate choosing!!
either ways im sure i'll make my decision later. hmm gotta pack for a lifetime of clothing -.-' just incase i choose to go back to Australia.
im prolly gonna be missing for a few days till i get things settle. im gonna miss all of you guys. this going out of country was just so out of nowhere. well i'll try to get stuffs for you guys. take care in brunei, pray for my safety dear love ones :D
love you guys. Friss Areen
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
"just when i thought with skin ill win" @ 11:58 AM
I MADE ANOTHER BIG MISTAKE!
L'FRISS - IES HAS BEEN HITTING ON ME LATELY
PUTERA- OWH OKAY NEED TO WAKE UP EARLY BYE.
:)
SHIT! I WAS TALKING TO HIS COUSIN -.-"
i cant do anything right anymore 0.0or so i think. idk but i think i just made em' jealous? WOAH curse of curves omg is he seriously? this is wow hahaha hes wow haha! wtf -.-'
"ones in a life" @ 10:04 AM
for once in my life i cried with a family the guys like Dd and Sidqil. it was probably one of our emotional nights. Uncle - i never thought this would happen. but just ones guys i really want you guys to know how Dd feel. aku inda mau kamu stay sini pasal kamu kesiankan ea. aku mau kamu banarbanar rasa. lai & fiq just think. kamu fikirkan sal your love one. lai that means faris.we sat there for awhile till he was sitting by his keyboard/piano, and he played this tune. and i knew the lyrics but idk who sang it. all i know remember was.aku berhenti berharap dan menunggu datang gelap sampai nanti suatu saat tak ada cinta ku dapat kenapa ada derita bila bahagia tercipta
kau berikan aku bahagia kau berikan aku derita.
and i cried sandaring on Dds shoulder thinking about faris. i just miss him, and even though i chatted with him this afternoon, i just felt like i really miss him i miss his hugs and his face and his annoying hair his innocent kiss its like everytime i write a post about him a tear will always appear in my eyes.faris- i got my armed wrapped up. so i cnt post the picture. sorry.i love you & i miss you. Laine.
Monday, December 14, 2009
"my burnt made a VI" @ 7:21 AM
Happy 3yrs 9month Anniversary :')
seeing you and her smile..
i have nothing else to say.
i went to youtube and listened to 'escape the fate- its harder than you know' and im reading these comments. im sorry for their loses. their love ones. day by day i try not to think about it. but what if 1 day what if im gone. will he still remember me? will he still call me as his tyg? im trying my best not to cry. but just doing this one post im already getting wattery and runny nose. cause when i think about it what if hes gone? will he know that i still love him?
welcome back stb. safe and sound :)
Laine Friss& i burnt my arm tonight. and i guess i shouldnt have looked for someone to care for me from some drinking guy :'( cause i know im never gonna get it. my burnt made a VI on my arm :')i wanna believe putera's words - 'everything is okay in the end, if it's not okay, then it's not the end'
Sunday, December 13, 2009
"its my only wish" @ 9:55 AM
F. FPZ - im scared of getting hurt again
i need to talk to Friss again before i make a decision & put my self at risk again. like i always do, i need your help.
